I sit down to write this after an all-too-common type of day—a two year old in the throes of the tantrum phase, with diaper rash, no nap, and what can only be described passably as a snack instead of dinner. He got to go to bed at 6. He thought I locked him in his room, which is a surefire way to guarantee he cries himself to sleep, rather than continually hopping out of bed until 9:30. The daughter stayed up a little later because she’s for sure prepping for a growth spurt, and needed three snacks to feel full before bedtime. Forty minutes of bedtime stories later, and I have the house to myself. Because, ya know, my husband was naturally scheduled for a nineteen hour call shift tonight. My house is disaster but all I want to do is veg out and enjoy the quiet. There hasn’t been enough of that in my life lately. Even when things are quiet, my brain is humming along, reminding me of all the things on my to-do list, my forgot-to-do list, and my how-will-I-ever-get-that-done list. Feels familiar to you, too, I’m sure.
Thankfully we have a God who understands us—who created us to serve him and who knows that we are constantly overworking ourselves, overthinking life circumstances, and driving ourselves over the proverbial edge (or maybe our kids are doing that…).
Let this sink in: God KNOWS you. And in spite of what may feel to you as your unworthy, crazy, busy, messy lives, God LOVES you. He knows you can’t do it all (I’m finally admitting myself that I can’t do it all). He knows that you sometimes lock yourself in the bathroom for some alone time and still get chased by little fingers under the doors, little voices through the door, and sometimes in my case, little hands picking the lock with a hair clip. He knows that at the end of the day, you’re exhausted and still have to summon energy to finish those last few chores before letting yourself relax, still have to summon energy to do it all over again tomorrow. He knows, ladies. He understands. And so do the rest of us.
Remind yourself to breathe. To BREATHE with your whole body, to re-center yourself in the midst of insanity. Remind yourself that these moments will pass, which can be good or bad at any given time. Remind yourself to seek God’s mercy when you feel like a failure, and to seek out the companionship of another MOPS mom for commiseration and encouragement.
The next few months will be a flurry of activity, preparation, big holidays and, hopefully, a lot of family time. Remember to breathe! When we take in these sustaining breaths, let them be a reminder to you that God is our sustainer, our hope, and our encourager. Let these moments of peace, however fleeting, carry you through the busiest, most exciting time of the year.